Does anyone understand?

Mär 10, 2008 at 10:57 o\clock

The Love Or LIke Situation

Well I've blown it with him. I don't know what I've done but he hasn't talked to me in a week! What the hell did I do? He knows me better then anyone and knows i don't take rejection well. To compensate for this I'm dying my hair purple, changing a bit of myself to stop me feeling like a reject.

Well sometimes life really does S U C K !

Feb 27, 2008 at 22:15 o\clock

Love or like?

Listening to: MCR/Smashing pumpkins

 I have just realised how fucking confusing life is. For instance, do i love my best friend? I have a strange feeling i do. Does he feel the same way? Will it be special this time or not? I'm i falling hard and fast? Would he stopped if I fell? If we were never to see each other again would he look back and think `WHAT IF?` I don't know. But I think I'm just starting to work it out. If you do let me know. Even if you give me a tip.

And another thing, as lead singer and drumer/rare keyboardist i get stuck with writting songs. But everything i write turns out wrong. I can't let A.P.O down their my band help!

Feb 25, 2008 at 22:18 o\clock

Question Mark

Listening to: Jimmy Eat World

we were born to die,
We were born to lie,
What's the point,
The blunt blade of a sword?
The uselessness of your word,
The pain i've seen,
The terror i've heard,
The siloet of the trees,
Spirits dance i'm the sky,
Now it's harder for me to lie,
The struggle of this life i live,
The happiness of the myth.

Feb 25, 2008 at 22:03 o\clock

Whats wrong with me?

by: emogirl_lifesucks   Keywords: only, one

Mood: Reflective
Listening to: My Chemical Romance- Helena

i ask myself a lot of questions. But my most frequent one is... Does anyone understand? i see my school shrink every week, and i feel judged. It's messing me up. If only i knew what that stupid woman was thinking. I don't know if I'm normal or not, possibly not. People think just because i'm emo it means i'm ACTING like this, but i'm not, seriously i'm being myself. Or at least the closest thing to myself as i can get. I have serious issues that cut deep in to my heart and skin, and no one seems to what to ignolage them. I feel judged by my family, it seems as if i'm constantly being told i'm too fat, my boobs arn't big enough, my hair's wrong or i'm just generally not the average. But i like being different i just don't want to be this different. I want to enjoy the normal things but i just feel something's getting in the way. I join this because i'm hoping whoever is reading this feels the same way, and i'm not the only one. If you feel you understand please leave me a comment.

                                                                    x x emo girl x x